Senior Year

Okay so I kinda know that my last post was about my Senior Year. But I was just at my Mom's Blog where she had written about me and leaving. It is just so overwhelming sometimes to think that I will be leaving home soon in little less than a year I will be going off to college. I am so excited to go to college and become a Pastry Chef. And at the same time I am very scared. I know I have said this a bunch of times but now with getting my schedule for my classes this year yesterday it all kind of hit me. I am a senior in high school and I will be graduating in less than a year and then a few months after that I will be in college. Now who knows where I will be going it is all a part of God's Plan. I do know what college I want to go to its the Art Institute International in Lenexa Kansas. But if I go there or not is all apart of God's Plan for my life. It is all in his hands. But let me tell you I will be scared every step of the way. I am scared to leave my home the people who love me and support me in everything that I do. I am scared that no one will like me like my friends now do. I am scared that I will fail. I don't want to fail but I am scared of it. Yes I know that it is just Satan trying to test me. But he is not going to win me over. Well thanks for reading my blog! Have a Great Day! God Bless!!!

Lately

Okay so it has come to my attention that my senior year is approaching very fast. I didn't realize how close it was until just the other day. In a few short weeks I will have to enroll for my classes. On Monday marching band camp will officially start. In less than a month we will be moving across the highway into a beautiful home. Last Monday Guard officially started for the season. Also it has come to my attention that I need to change some things about me. For instance I have to change my diet. The reason why I have to change my diet is because of some medical reason. I am kinda excited because everything that I have to do is what I like to do. So it is all good! But the thing is that I can't believe that I am going to be a senior in high school. I have talked to some of my friends and they have said that they are scared and I am just as scared as they are. I remember when I was at the freshman center it seems like it was just yesterday. Yes I know that everyone says that your senior year is your fastest year of school because it is your last so you better enjoy it. And I will tell you one thing I WILL ENJOY MY SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL!!! Any ways just wanted to let you know whats up! Thanks for reading! Have a Great Day God Bless!!!

Answered Prayers!

Okay this is going to be a short one folks! In my last blog I told asked you to pray for me and my family. Well our prayers were answered!!!! We are moving!!! Now we won't move until September but moving into this house is putting our family in the right direction for adoption! So that is pretty much about all I wanted to tell you today. Get back to you soon! Love you guys and thanks for reading my blog.

PRAY

So lately I have been in my summer school class and I am glad to tell you that I have one more day left but that is not what I wanted to talk about. My family and I have been very blessed. Now I don't mean that we have a lot of money or we have everything in the world. We have been blessed by the little things. And it is the littlest things that matter. Now I came on to this blog not knowing what to right but as I listen to Michael Buble's song HOME I know what to write about. See my family and I had something come up a couple of months ago that would possibly in the near future let us move into a new home. This home if we were able to get it would let us be one step closer to getting a little girl from China. So that is a good thing. But this opportunity went away because for what it seemed like God was closing the doors or so we thought. Just this last Friday we got a call from the owners of the house saying that they have reconsidered us to rent this beautiful home. So that put some hope into our minds my mom has been talking to the three of us kids to see if we even want to move and of course there is going to be some conflicts. The good thing about where this home is located is that it is in the same school district that we live in now.  But my dad from what it seems like isn't in on board like the rest of us are. My mom has been talking to the owners of the home and they are planning for us to go and look and the home Wednesday or Thursday. So what I am asking is if you will pray for us that God will put it on our hearts on weather or not we need this house or if we just really want it. Pray that he will give us a yes or a no. My mom feels like it is a leap of faith leading into our adoption and I believe that also. Pray that my dad will see what my mom and brothers and I are seeing. PRAY

You Find God's Grace In Every Mistake

So I would love to tell you that I love summer school but I don’t. First of all I only have two classes that each last the length of a morning. From 7:30-10:45 in the morning is my first session and 11:15-2:30 in the afternoon is my second session. So that is the first reason why I don’t like summer school. The second reason I dread waking up in the morning is because I have ABSOLUTELY NO FRIENDS that are with me. Now you’re probably thinking that its because they passed their class and yes they did. But see in my morning class I am taking Personal Finance or “Senior Seminar” as you older people like to call it. And this class is a class that tells you how to buy a house, a car, manage a banking account, balancing check books. So this class can be boring especially this week because I a have had a sub for a week. I am not talking this class because I failed it. I have never taken this class before. I am taking it so I don’t have to take it next year. See only seniors are allowed to take it so since I am going to be a senior next year I would have had to take it but instead I choose to take it in the summer because one it is so much easier in summer and two I have room to take other classes that I want to. And in my afternoon class it is the same length as the morning class. I am taking Algebra Two because I actually failed that class second semester. I chose to take it this summer instead of during the year next year because in the summer it is always easier. Another reason why I hate my afternoon class is because for the first hour we take notes then go to a fifteen minute break. After break he gives us a worksheet which takes me literally two minutes to do. After I’m done we sit there until our next break which isn’t for another hour. And after that break we comeback check our worksheet and take a quiz. So since it only takes me two minutes to do my worksheet then you would probably guess that it takes me about the same to do my quiz. And it does, it takes me at least five minutes to take my quiz. After that we sit until the bell rings at 2:30. Also another reason why I don’t like summer school is because the school it so stupid. In my morning class I am at another school and there rules are that bad but in my afternoon class I’m at another school and there rules are so stupid. One of their rules is that you’re not supposed to bring any un-opened container or food on the “campus.” UGH I HATE SUMMER SCHOOL. I hate that I am ranting but I won’t be happy until my last day which is June 30th. That is also another reason why I hate summer school. Because it takes up half of my summer. I have band camp so my second half of my summer is that. But I’m okay with band camp I love that part of my summer. But this part it torcher. “Please just shoot me now,” as I like to say, of course I don’t mean it, I just want to get out of this place. I’m actually writing this while I’m at summer school in between two of my breaks in my afternoon session.

Now how this blog pertains to my title I have no clue but it is my Facebook status and I thought it fit. I’m not sure if it does now but oh well I like it!

Thanks for reading! Have a Great Day! God Bless!

Growing Up!

So I am sitting in my garage with my mom, my little brother and my other “mom.” We are watching my dad and my older brother help fix my best friends car. Her name is Michelle and I have known her since we were in kindergarten. I love her to death but sitting here watching her fix her car is so boring. People may ask me what’s wrong and I will tell them it’s because I am bored. I am sitting here looking on how much we have grown up. It seems like just the other day we were sitting up in my room playing with Barbie dolls. And now look at us we are sitting here working on her car and now we are seniors in high school. It’s weird to think that we have grown up so fast, but we have. Sometimes I wish that we were little girls so we won’t have to worry about anything besides bumps and scratches, and now we have to worry about which boy likes us or if he even likes us. Or weather or not we am going to make it into the college we want to go to. No more worrying about selling the most Girl Scout Cookies to get the biggest prize and a patch to add to your vest, now its worrying about turning a big paper in on time so we don’t fail the class so we can graduate. Life is changing and so are we. The thing is, we have to change with it even if we don’t want to we have to because if we don’t grow up we won’t get anywhere in life. So when you are called to be a Pastry Chef or an Aeronautical Engineer you have to answer it because it may be your one chance to actually grow up. Now don’t get me wrong I love being the age I am but sometimes I just want to be a little girl again. And I will tell you right now that I am scared to death to go into my senior year of high school in a few months. There is just something about being in my home that is so warm and comforting. I know that my parents want me to leave the “nest” and then again they don’t. And I am feeling the same exact way because I have been in the comfort of this city for so long and to go to another city and go to college is kind of scary to think about. So now with me sitting here with these two families shows me how much I am loved and how much people support me. Our two families are really great friends because of Michelle and I, and if our two families would have never been friends I don’t want to even think about how our lives would be because they have changed our lives so much. Thanks for reading this today! Have a great weekend! God Bless!

Laura

So you know how the other day I talked about my friend Laura. Well I am very glad to have her as a friend. I went to her graduation party today and I enjoyed myself so much. I met her best friend named Erin today. She is a very sweet young lady I was glad to meet her. Erin wants to be a hair stylist which is really cool. And like I said the other day Laura wants to be a nurse. Laura is a wonderful friend, she is one of those friends who you will know forever. Once your friends with them it is hard to forget a friend like that, Laura is ONE of those friends. J I am going to miss her next year when she isn’t marching on the field with me, or at band camp on the field learning the drill. No more sitting on the CTC bus talking about how rude the guys on the bus are or talking about our parents or our faith. There will only be short conversations about how school or band is going. Yes I will be able to see her at band competitions and football games. But it won’t be like it was at school. And as I sit here looking at pictures of her at band camp that her dad has given me I think of next year and how much it is going to be different because all of my senior friends have left and are off at school while I am now a senior in high school. Yes it is going to be a little bit scary to be a senior but I am jumping into to next year with all of my friends with out looking back. So Laura has given me a look on what my senior year should look like and not what people say it should be. Laura has been a wonderful friend to me this year. She has touched my life very much. I am very glad to have a friend like her in my life! Thank You Laura!

Mom

So I know I just blogged but I just read my mama's blog (http://www.thingsiponderinmyheart.blogspot.com/) and I just couldn't help but cry when I read it. No matter what I do I always seem to make her happy. I love my mama so dearly. I am very glad to have a mom like her. I am going to miss her when I go off to college. I don't want to grow up yet but then I do. I want to live my life on my own but I don't want to leave the comfort of my home. I am surrounded by the people I love each and every day. Yes there are some days that we fight but my mama is one person who will always be there for me no matter what I do. SO I just wanted to say how much I love my mama. She has been there for me when everyone else in the world turned against me. She is my rock. I can rely on her to do anything for me and to be anywhere for me. She will always be my MAMA!!! So this blog right here is for you mama!!! :)

Almost Done

So school is slowly coming to an end for the year. I still have one year left of high school. Unlike some of my friends there last day is tomorrow. I am feeling this same sadness that I had last year around this time, the sadness of my friends leaving. This year is especially hard because I am loosing some really great friends that I have made this year. See there are a group of boys at my school who have made me laugh so hard this year. Some days when I was having a terrible day they would be there sitting next to just making me smile and laugh. They are graduating and I am going to miss them. Then there is this other boy named Brooks Stotts who I have known for a while and he is going to be graduating as well. He is a boy who will flirt with you because he knows you like him. And then in the end you end up being GREAT friends. He is a wonderful young man and he knows what to say and when to say it. He IS my best friend and I am going to miss him next year when he goes off to college. And then after Brooks there is John Gibson. John is my country boy. He makes me laugh even when he is mad at everyone who talks to him but he knows when I am upset, sad, angry or mad and cheers me up no matter what mood he is in. He will flirt with me even when he is around his girl-friend. He is one of those guys you wish was yours and only yours. I am going to miss him. Next is a very good friend named Laura Buckle! Laura is such a sweet young lady. She wants to be a nurse to she is going to stay here in my home town so I can still talk to her. I have become GREAT friends with her over the last year. She has been in band with me for three years but this year has been the year where we really became friends. So with the Seniors last day tomorrow there will be tears of joy and tears of sadness. But I will never forget the great things that my friends have done for me this year. I just hope that we can keep in contact!!!
　

Comfort

So here I am once again sitting somewhere headed no where. I am in my culinary class seeing my teacher dance and sing to the songs that are coming over the intercom while grilling hamburgers. I am enjoying myself today just sitting back and watching what is going on. It is a special day at CTC today. We are celebrating great scores for the entire school! Down the table from me is a group from my class playing a card game while the rest of the class is off doing other things. I have decided to stay back and just relax today. The school year is coming to an end for some of the students in my class. They are Seniors and they're going to graduate soon but I still have to go. Each and every person is having fun doing their own thing. I am not flustered or anything I am just calm and relaxed. I don't want to leave my classroom because I know that I am safe here. I know that I will  be rejected by the people outside of that door. I know that I have friends who love me in this very room. I don't know, something about today makes me love my life for the little things. Something about this classroom makes me come in, each and everyday. Maybe its the teacher or the students? Maybe its even the kids and the teachers in the other classes. But whatever it is makes me love my life more and more.

Mommies Day!

So here I am on my way home from taking my older brother back to SBU for the last time as a freshman. And it is mother day of all day and next year he will be a sophomore in college and I will be a senior in high school. My little brother will be a junior and soon after that we will all be out of high school. I know it is hard to think about right now because I want to just enjoy my senior year and I don’t want anything to change right now. I know for my mom it seems very hard to think about and I know she doesn’t want me to “leave the nest” but I know she also knows that we all have to grow up weather we want to or not. It’s just really hard to think about.



I try and wrap my mind around what is going to happen to me soon. Next month by the schools terms I will become a senior in high school because the seniors now will have graduated and we will be the rulers of the school. Then in the fall I will start my school year off as a good start. I will be able to do just about anything I want to (still following my parents rules). I will be gaining more trust with my parents because they know that soon I will be off at college not far away but I will be growing up. I will become a Pastry Chef!

This weekend I made my mom and mothers day cake. The cake was an ice cream cake. I used a spring form pan and baked my cake in that. After it was done I let it freeze completely when it was frozen I put a layer of magic shell (it’s like chocolate syrup but hardens when it gets cold) let that freeze. Then I put my ice cream on top of the shell. I put it back into the freezer to let the ice cream get hard and later I pulled it out and decorated the top of it. When I pulled it out of the freezer today I took the ring off and very carefully decorated the sides. It was a difficult task to decorate the sides but it sure was worth it. We all enjoyed the yummy ice cream cake after a delicious mothers day lunch/dinner. It was a chocolate cake with mint chocolate chip ice cream on top. Check it out!

School

Oh School oh school why do you always have to be on my mind??? Why are you always there??? I am always thinking about you. And I don't like to think about you. Grrrrrrrr. Shoe from my mind forever and I ever. I just want to be done with you. :( But that will never happen because you are always making me LEARN. I don't like LEARNing sometimes. Grrrrrrrrrr just go away now please.

Hey Ya'll!!!

So I know that I haven't blogged in like forever but I have been kinda busy. Lately I have had Winter Guard and now this week my school is having fall tryouts. Now I am not worried about making it on the team next year because I have been on the team for 3 years now. God has blessed me with this incredible talent to spin a flag. I am worried though that I won't make rifle line. I have tried out for the past three years and I haven't made it. But now that I actually have someone who will take the time to teach me how to spin I have a better chance on making it. (For those of you who don't know I am in the Color/Winter Guard at my school we are a very talented group of people) I have been worried every year and I have never made it. I do know that it is God's will if he wants me to make rifle then he will let me. I have also been worried about making section leader or captain for the guard. I am not to worried because "Hey if I don't make it then its whatever." Like I said before its whatever God wants for me. Just pray for me that I make rifle line and section leader.

Okay now on to a different subject:

Did you know that I want to be a Pastry Chef???? Well I do I have a lot of help from the people around me in my community. God has blessed me with these people! Since I will be a senior next year I have been looking at colleges. And decided what college I want to is a very difficult thing to do but I think I have narrowed it down to the one that I want to go to. I have chosen to go to The Art Institute International of Lenexa Kansas. I am choosing to go to this college because one it is really close to home and the school that I have looked at before were far and I am a person who likes to be near my family. So that is one of the reasons I choose this college. The other reason why I choose this college is because it is a really good school that has a really good Baking & Pastry program. It is an Art Institute so it specializes in those types of things. It is always good to go to a college that specializes in what you want to do. I am very blessed to have already decided on what I want to do with the rest of my life before I get out of high school and to also have decided on what college I want to go to before my senior year of high school. Now granted I am only a junior right now but I still have a lot of decisions to be made in my life. God has graciously unfolded this before my eyes and for that I am very thankful!!!

So with this fast update in my life and how it has been Pray for me that I make rifle line and section leader. Also pray for me that I do very well in college and in the last year of high school. And pray for my walk with Christ. That it grows stronger in him each day that I am here on this planet!!!

These Simple Truths

Sidewalk Prophets: The Words I Would Say

Three in the morning, and I'm still awake.
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing just what I'd say
If we were face to face.

I'd tell you just what you mean to me
Tell you these simple truths

Be Strong in the Lord, and never give up hope
You're gonna do great things, I already know
God's got His hand on You, so don't live life in feat
Forgive and forget, but don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray
These are the words I would say

Last time we spoke you said you were hurting
And I felt your pain in my heart.
I want to tell you that I keep on praying
Love will find you where you are

I know 'cause I've already been there
So please here these simple truths

Be Strong in the Lord, and never give up hope
You're gonna do great things, I already know
God's got His hand on You, so don't live life in feat
Forgive and forget, but don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray
These are the words I would say

Say...from on simple life to another
I will say...come find peace in the Father

Be Strong in the Lord, and never give up hp[e
You're gonna do great things, I already know
God's got His hand on You, so don't live life in feat
Forgive and forget, but don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray
And thank God for each day
His love will find a way
These are the words I would say

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